Our Story.

This blog is a healing process. Last year, my girlfriend and I were railroaded out of our college campus housing because she was using the "wrong" bathrooms. We fought, we had meetings, we were called all manner of terrible names, we planned a non-violent movement with protests. We lived out of our car in the rain for a week, sleeping on a friend's deflating zebra-print air mattress and eating food from Sheetz. We cried, we screamed, and we educated. And finally we moved into an apartment in town. We had a safe place to do our work, sleep, shower, and eat. We healed from the immediate effects. And then we waited for the rest to be better.

But it's not that simple, of course. Time does not heal all wounds on our schedule. We're seniors now, and trying to finish up our degrees and find jobs for next year. The two of us have reacted very differently to the events of last year and to the recurring problems and triggers we've faced since.

I still have a lot of anger and resentment towards my college and towards certain individuals who made the decisions which kept the discrimination in place and which caused us to move off-campus mid-semester. This has been just as much a blessing as a curse; my girlfriend learned to cook, we moved in together officially, and we've since adopted a bunny, Bramble. We're settled, safe, and comfortable, but I'm still angry. Some days it's hard to motivate myself to walk the mile to campus.

So I need healing. I need a way to recover, and to regain my own balance. And so I am starting this project.

I am knitting a quilt, from a pattern that I bought on Etsy. It's called the Beekeeper's Quilt, because it's made from about a zillion little stuffed hexagons, which are small and easy to make, even on the go. Every day, I will knit at least one little hexagon, and I will post a picture of the hexagon with a healing phrase, quote, affirmation, thought, prayer, lyric, poem, source of inspiration, something that will keep me focused on healing and on transforming my anger, my pain, and my angst. At the end of the project, at least a year from now, I'll sew them into a quilt which I can use to comfort myself, and to remember each of these little affirmations, which I hope to compile in a small book. I hope that posting it here will keep me accountable to the project and inspire others.


I've bought some supplies and am teaching myself the double-point needles. And I'm starting.